10 November, 2011


Well, in just a few days I should find out if I do indeed have poly-cystic ovarian syndrome.  It would explain the sudden weight gain, and my seemingly inability to loose any weight lately.  The good news is that if I do have PCOS I can get on hormones and medication that should help me.  And the idea of not having acne and hairloss is thrilling!  I have been really bad about updating and filling in my trackers lately, but I am still trying my best.  Of course I splurged a little and had some candy at Halloween.  But I am walking a lot, a couple miles each weekend with the kids.  I did do my measurements today, and am shocked at how big I have gotten.  I really feel trapped by this weight. 

14 September, 2011

Backslide and absence

I haven't posted in a long time due to the fact that I did indeed get sick after that last post.  And by the time I was feeling better, my life went to hell.  My daughter's sixth birthday was March 22.  We had a party that weekend at Chuck E Cheese.  I was still being good and trying to diet at the time.  But my mom was getting weaker from the chemotherapy she was taking.  And the Chemo wasn't working.  So they took her off of it, and decided to give her a three week break to recover her strength. By April 1st you could see new tumors popping up through her skin.  By April 7th she was bedridden.  On April 10 I came home from work and she didn't know who I was.  April 12 She went into Hospice.  She died April 14.

  My daughter began having nightmares every night.  Her she had always had attention problems, but she spun out of control.  She was angry and depressed.  I put in at work for a Leave of Absence to care for my daughter's mental health and to cope with the death in the family.  The personnel manager said she had the paperwork printed and waiting.  It wasn't.  The Store Manager said they would mail the LOA packet, and to take all the time I needed.  Instead of a LOA packet, I got a termination notice.  I was fired days after my mother died and my daughter had a mental breakdown.

  So I get my daughter into therapy, and she is diagnosed ADHD.  She has started the first grade now and is doing better so far.  The medication she is on has also had the great effect of making her less obsessed with eating.  She lost 6lbs the first month, and 2 1/2 the next two weeks.  She is still heavy, but is doing much better.

 My step-father on the other hand has retreated to his room, and is clearly drinking.  Between caring for my two kids, trying to keep the house clean, and cooking meals for everyone I am a busy woman.  With a lot of stress.  I have to clean out the horded belongings of my mom while I am at it.  Because of everything that is going on I have been having trouble with my Fibromyalgia.  I have also had numerous mini- menieres episodes.  As of my 31st birthday I have also been struggling with my own depression.

All this has taken its tole with a huge weight gain.  I have ballooned up to 295lbs.  It is fluctuating.  I lost 9lbs in a week when I was sweating a lot and doing a lot of housework.  Then I start my period and gain it all back. 

12 February, 2011

uber busy

Today I really don't know how I am going to squeeze everything in. I am so tired, barely slept last night because sick daughter decided to sleep in my bed. And teething baby boy woke up frequently. I have to do laundry, and pack up stuff for baby boy to go to my friend's so she can watch him while I work tonight. It's a 3-11 shift, so I will be so beat tonight. I did the fitness assessment on Your Shape this morning. Got a c+ and was exhausted. Thinking I might skip working out on the wii fit. Feeling like I am getting a cold, too.

11 February, 2011

Day Three

I must say that this is a bit more challenging than I first thought.  The blogging, not the doing minimum of 10 minutes of exercise a day.  I did 30 minutes on the wii today.  I broke it up into some yoga, aerobics, and balance exercise.  Feeling good so far, and I actually already lost .7 of a pound in only three days.
  I am also using the loseit.com app to track everything I eat.  Which so far is going good.

10 February, 2011

Food Diary

I slept very little last night, as my four month old son is teething.  Woke up, took my multi-vitamin and my fish oil pill with tea, and got my daughter ready for school.  It was a crazy busy day today because my son had his well child visit, with three shots.  It takes two and a half hours to get a visit in at MetroHealth Pediatrics.  But I did manage to fit in 22 minutes on the wii fit this morning.  I did some yoga, cycling, and then a few balance exercises.  I must say it is really quite difficult to do some of them.  I fully intended to update this blog more fully, but here it is 10:30 at night and I just want to go to bed.  I will probably edit this tomorrow if I have time after posting again.

Good Night.

09 February, 2011

Wii Fit Plus

Today our wii fit arrived. Excitedly, I set it up and got right to the test. My wii fit age is 39. Yikes. I am obese and seriously have poor balance. I tried two balance exercises, and then a short run. I was seriously challenged by running. I also did the snowball fight, which is majorly fun. I plan on doing at least 10 minutes a day on the wii as part of my plan. The whole family is joining in.

The Challenge

I have been overweight almost all my life.  By age 14 I was a size 28 in woman's clothing.  I have tried numerous diets, healthy eating plans, exercise programs, and fads to loose the weight over the years.  I have yo-yo'd from 285 pounds to 195 pounds and everywhere in between.  Before I had my daughter in 2005 I was down to my lowest at 195 and a size 32" waist.  I wore my fiancee's clothing because nothing fit.  But pregnancy took its toll, especially after almost 4 months on bed rest. I was right back up to a size 26 in no time.  Fast forward a few years.  I just had baby number two, and am hanging in at a size 20.  I gained all of two pounds during my pregnancy.  But in the following four months I put on 15 pounds with out gaining an inch somehow.  I am breastfeeding, trying to eat healthy, working part time, and over all undergoing stress.

So here is the challenge.  I want to go from 260 pounds to 185 pounds by my thirty second birthday.  That is 75 pounds in 513 days.  I am tracking my progress on an iPod app called TargetWeight which is free to download. But in order to hold myself accountable I am going to blog about my progress.  It might be messy, it is sure to be emotional, and it will be one heck of a wild ride.

Why blog

I have been inspired to write about my quest to loose weight after watching ironically two movies about food. Eat Pray Love, because it is important to have passion and friends. And Julie/Julia because with strangers supporting you, encouraging you, well anything is possible.